The life expectancy for a woman in Australia is 85.4 years, 31,191 days. I’m 57 this year. Today I’ve lived 20 728 days.
If I live to 85.4 years, I have 10,463 days left. What do I want to do with these remaining days?
Calculate how long you’ve lived here:
What have I achieved in the 20724 days I have lived so far? How have I made the world a little better because I lived?
Sounds a little morbid to be thinking of my end? I don’t think it is, I think it’s a wake up call to use my one precious life in a way that brings joy and leaves the world a little richer for me having lived.
Knowing how little time I may have inspires me to get on with living my best life. Leading me to making a decision which is sad but at the same time exciting. A decision I can now make while holding two dialectic emotions.
I will be closing the shop front in Clare in December this year. I want to spend more time with my family, creating. writing patterns, traveling and teaching. The online shop will get a make over and there will be an exciting change of focus there too.
This is the perfect time to make this decision. I’m emotionally well enough to cope with the changes this will bring.
I feel like I’ve lived 57 years of my life with concrete on my feet and since my diagnosis of BPD and treatment that concrete has been slowly chipped away, along with the weight! I’m set to make the next 57 years of my life, the best years of my life.
I want to live those years to my values. No longer will I try to ‘fit’ into what I believed was the expectations of society and others. I’m finding my wings and freedom to be whom ever I want to be.