Oh my goodness I’m crying.
It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.
Theodore Roosevelt
As someone with lived experience of bpd, who has numbed those intense emotions with food to cope, this YouTube of Brene Brown speaks to my heart!
No longer do I want to numb with food and spending, I’m going to be brave and feel my emotions and walk through the fire to find my authentic self.
Living one day at a time.
A year ago I would not have had the courage to be in the arena of YouTube, sharing my videos and love of creating with possibly millions of views. Opening myself to the dreaded thumb down. But here I am killing it. Bravely putting my head above the trench.
By being brave and no longer eating to numb my emotions I am now 15kgs lighter and feeling that intense joy for life that only those of us with BPD will have the privilege to know.
I’m embracing who I am, the imperfect human being. The over emotional ‘drama queen’ the anxiety ridden ‘nervous Nelly’ the attention seeking, ‘show off’. They are all part of me and that is more than ok!!
